SELF

 THE SELF

When we are younger, we know not of the pain and trials this world holds. We are happy without needing a reason. Simple things give us joy. We think anything is possible and have ‘wild’ dreams.

As we grow older the world begins to wear us out. We get to see the imbalance. We get to see that not all things go how we want them to. We go through pain, hurt, criticism and unfair circumstances. Then gradually our smile fades, our dreams die and our hearts numb. We begin to go through life searching for happiness, searching for fun yet when we were young it was as simple as entertaining oneself. We begin to have a need to have a reason to keep on. A meaning. We change the more we experience life and it’s issues. But the more we become numb the more we lose thy selves.

When I found Christ at my lowest and let him carry my burden he began to reform me. To work on me so I could heal. And firstly what he did was open up old wounds that I had grown numb to. Things I swept under the rug but the rug began reeking of pain. I was in fact not healed but I just ignored. Because true healing brings joy not just being numb to what happened. I hurt all over again and faced them mentally all over again but this time I had someone holding my hand through it.

Slowly and steadily I began going back to my childlike self. My childhood dreams. I could stay alone for hours yet still be entertained. I had peace. I began dreaming of “impossible” things all over again. I became fully dependent all over again. This time not on my parents but on God.

Maybe just maybe that’s who we truly need to be. Remember that time you had no care in the world? Maybe that is who you truly were.

“And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.”

Matthew 18:3 NIV

Only difference is now you’re grown. You don’t have the same thought process like you did when you were a child. You have more insight on how the world operates. Good, but do not let your heart grow cold. Let it still be as warm as that of a child. Let your spirit be as motivated as that of a child and  your mind as that of an adult.

May the peace of the Lord be upon you.