2025 IN A NUTSHELL

 

YEAR IN REVIEW 2025

(NOTE: My analogies are not Biblical references!”)

WOW!

Hey, it’s been a minute since I wrote on here. 

2025 warrants a page honestly.

My reaction to 2025 is a silent and amused, “wow”.

I could not add or subtract to the year that has been. I have been humbled to the maximum by all the events that have  panned out in the course of the year.

Here beloved are my highlights :

FIRST QUARTER (Jan -Mar):  THE TRANCE

In January,I was fresh out of a trance that I had lived in for the past 2 years. Coming back to reality was quite shocking because then I realised how delusional I was. I was no where near being the person I thought I was and to make matters worse, ‘I WAS THE PROBLEM’

However, if you’ve read my previous articles, you know we face our ugly sides around here, so no, it was shocking but not paralysing. If anything, I got an urge to be better and do better. Be more responsible and take things as they are.

That simple mindset bore so much fruit in such a short time. A real sense of fulfilment that did not actually live in another dimension. The true existential plot twist that I found was that freedom is found within responsibility and commitment Not without. Taking responsibility of my life, my short-comings and committing to them was a new form of freedom that I had not experienced much of before.

 Within the first four months everything that I had set out as a goal had began. In this I saw the hand of God. To be honest I was at my peak. Everything was quite solid and internally I couldn’t have felt better.

 

SECOND QAURTER (Apr-Jun): CONFRONTATION

It was winter alright and so it was with my life.

Earlier in the first quarter I met someone who I did not think much about until the end of it.

I’ll use the analogy of this person being a goat among sheep. Little did people know that I was a goat but one that learnt to grow wool on her skin. This was quite confronting to me as I kept interacting with the fellow goat. Why? I did not realise it before because I do it everywhere I go. Which is simply fitting into a crowd. Now, this is not necessarily people pleasing but more of not revealing parts of your true nature since the vast majority are similar or also do not reveal it. However, this goat was just that, A goat. It did not cover up its true nature. I will not say it revealed everything, but you could so clearly tell that it was peculiar. Yet, it did not try to be anything less. Some few sheep did try to teach it to baa like a sheep rather than a goat, but that effort was close to futile. If you can’t tell already my interest was sparked. And I watched it. Not only among the sheep did it remain a goat but also among the bulls. What was more intriguing is how each one accepted it regardless. It’s how it accepted all other animals regardless.

Remember my article on vulnerability? This goat is the impersonation of that.

For some reason this triggered me. 

Do you know the woman I want to be? A real one. Say what I mean when I mean it. Is this less than perfect? Okay but that’s why I am at, now. I do not want to camouflage in circles. I don’t want to hide what I truly feel and what I truly like. I do not want to be the goat that learnt how to grow wool on her skin. I do not want to erase my true nature because I in a crowd of a different nature.

This is why I was triggered. I realised I wanted to be as free and open as the goat but i never was. It was never anyone’s fault. No one told me to grow the wool, I just did. And for what?

This drained me. I wasn’t at my strongest mentally, spiritually nor financially. However, I did the best I could but physically was doing pretty well.

 

THIRD QUARTER (Jul-Sep): CULMINATITION

July blues went on for a while as I began learning that right turns out right in the kingdom of God.

I had so many thoughts bouncing of each other but in real sense it was more of me determining what I wanted for my future. It was as if the universe said “your time for lingering is up. DECIDE.”

Anyways spring began to sip in, and flowers slowly began to bloom. And so did I. August was the culmination of the decisions that I had made throughout the year. Everything happened all at once, without fail in almost all facets of my life. True to that, all these were a blessing, and man was I on my toes. I had the most productive and fulfilling third quarter. Last year the fairytale was in my head, this year I was living in it. In as much as it was a great third quarter, I barely had time for myself. From early 4:30 AM (work) starts to late 9PM (lecture) finishes, I could barely read my Bible like I used to. I barely went to the gym.

All in all, I was doing amazing mentally, great intellectually but not so good spiritually and poorly physically. 

LAST QUARTER(Oct-Dec): THE KNOWING

This is the part when all the growth I realised internally finally was put into practice.

From having the most pleasant birthday to travelling back home and coming back only to realise that two things can be true at once. Your heart can live in two places without throwing the one. Like Tarzan, a human raised by gorillas. Where is his home?

I finally realised, home is not a place, and the earth is quite small to think distance separates you from home.

I see how sweet and deep abiding relationships can be and how distance means nothing. I have realised you can spend years apart and nothing changes yet everything is different. What a blessing to experience pure form of love from people in multiple countries. At our core we all are similar! Really! I mean SIMILAR! Some countries are less fortunate and others well governed but really the people, at their core are just the same. Home is everywhere you go.

I know how to be who I am amongst a new crowd and I am beginning to embody it. Show my skin and occasionally my teeth. Most importantly I know what I am not anymore and fully cutting it out of my vocabulary.

I learnt so much more about who I am and who I am trying to be by the experiences of this year.

I feel more revamped, energised and ready to get on with the next. Dear future me, I am coming for you!

Super pleased with where I am at now and hopeful for a good one next year as well.

END CREDITS: GRATITUDE TO GOD

All I can say is I am thankful and deeply pleased with the year that has been. 

I am thankful for the family and friends who make life tastier!

AND 

I am thankful for you dear reader! 

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR